The last 5 years of life for me have been scattered with simultaneously the most soul enhancing and crushing experiences. Right at the beginning of this journey, i remember writing a lot about what forgiveness is, and how to start the process. And boy has @daniellelaporte hit it on the head in her book 'White hot Truth'.
Just as Van Gough's painting 'Starry Night' is an impression of a night sky, viewed through tears, so too was my understanding of forgiveness. Unclear. Emotional. Still pretty. 😉. I knew forgiveness at the time as, 'to give forward'. To gather what has been given to you, and let go of it in your heart, then energetically leave it for the one who has hurt you, to handle.
Looking at it in hindsight, and with a bit more experience in forgiveness, what I once thought, I see now as not quite right. I really shouldn't ever be expecting anyone to handle my hurt, especially those who hurt me the most. That's giving away ALOT of power to someone who actually just needs boundaries set around them.
Today, I understand forgiveness a little differently. I still see it as giving forward, but, it's giving it forward to yourself, and no-one else. I own that pain, wisdom and experience! It's a radical and rebellious act of love and respect of myself and my life. Forgiveness starts to happen, when I forgive myself for not wanting to forgive. 🙌 Forgiveness is self care, it's gentle and kind and one day at a time. ✨ I have some beautiful self care rituals coming up every Friday, for everyone to join in over the weekend. ❤️💓 and I have started a hashtag: #selfcarefriyaysbecause I'd love to see you all looking after your warrior-selves too 😘💕 #ialign