~ The authentic self is the soul made visible ~
The more I dare to strip down layers of the created perfect version I once believed to be the real me, the more I rediscover parts of me I had long forgotten and suppressed. These experiences of feeling again are so precious, after a lifetime of numbness to escape pain, and no matter how excruciating and scary healing can be, it feels even more beautiful to remember who you were in the first place and finally learn to love yourself as you are. •
In the left picture I hated myself so much on the inside that i escaped into perfectionism and played a role I intentionally created.
Behind the happy perfect facade I was severely depressed and anxious , anorexic and abused drugs , addicted to other people's attention and validation as a substitute for the lack of self love in me. It's so easy to wear a mask in this society.
I had no self love within me for my true self, the self that I had abandoned long ago as I thought she would bring me nowhere in societies eyes.
The weird, messy, dreamy, wild, natural, crazy and loving self.
The right picture is me today, healing emotionally, mentally and physically by facing my inner demons and wounds. I'm changing from within and learn to accept and love the true naked natural vulnerable and messy me. Every day I get to value authenticity over any external satisfaction perfectionism could give me. I've never felt as alive as I do now, and life has never felt more exciting and surprising, once you learn to value living the truth over looking good. •
We're all sold the idea we're not good enough the way we are. Not pretty, skinny, hot, sexy, successful, whatever enough.
We never learned the embodiment of true self love, thus feeling insecure of hateful or both towards ourselves. It's so destructive to be in war with yourself and shields us from true connection and joy. Dare to be you, unapologetically. It's so worth it in the end to life a live that feels real and fulfilling to you than a fake one intended to impress others.